Sorry for the lack of updates... I'm trying to Facebook some things that are important along the way, but when it comes down to spending time with the kids or Robert vs posting a blog or fb post... Family wins everytime.
March has been a season of growth in our household. There have been some very bad and testy moments as well as some very good and enjoyable moments. The kids are showing that they are trying to have more manners and to obey more instead of be disciplined. There has been an increase in yes ma'ams and yes sirs, etc... As well as much quieter moments in the home... And believe me these kids are usually just loud so quiet is welcomed!
Waylon may still not be the best kid at school, but his teachers have noted that they are seeing a difference in him. We still get our usual phone calls and emails about his behavior, but again he is trying to do better and that's all that matters. Elva as sweet as she is has tried to test her limits lately but we are finding what works best for her (removing toys from her room) and we are seeing a big difference in the atmosphere of our home.
I am happy to say that we are moving forward up this mountain. The enemy of this world is still going to be fighting hard for these kids' souls and we have seen that struggle at home and at church. I refuse to give into a spiritual being that will never be superior to my God and no matter what he tries to throw at me, I will choose to love these children! Yes, despite the good things happening, I still find myself crying at ransoms times and random moments... Only now the tears aren't from desperation they are from an overwhelming realization that God is weaving our family together. Perfectly knit from His hands, the things we have dreamed about are coming to life... And that is enough to bring tears to my eyes. I only wish that my grandparents who have gone on to Heaven could meet Elva and Waylon. They would have loved them and have been loved back, but on the other side of Heaven I know they will get to play and meet under Gods light.
One thing Robert and I are trying to do is talk more about our favorite moments with the kids. If anyone is going through the same thing as us or about to increase their family, I would say take time to look for your favorite moments with each child. I feel that I get so caught up in making sure I have my home and my work and the kids stuff together next to worrying about if they are going to explode into a fit any second... That I forget to just stop and look at all the cute and wonderful things they do.
Waylon is so creative, he just needs a little push to expand his mind and then, woah, watch out bc he will surprise you! I love when he makes things out of mud and wants to give them as gifts to me. I love when he wants to lay by me and have his back rubbed. I love that he will now walk into the kitchen or living room where I am just to give me a hug and say that he loves me. (Melt my heart) I love coming home and jumping on the trampoline with him (although I don't last long bc it's tiring) and he wants to wrestle and laugh and smiles Soo big that no matter how much my legs burn I would stay out there forever for him to laugh. I love the way he and Elva make up goofy games at the table... They pick a number that you can't say (like 5) Nd then they take turns counting upwards until someone messes up and says the forbidden number on accident. It's quite amazing although sometimes annoying haha. I love when Elva sits down at the coffee table with all her markers, scissors, glue, and paper and begins to create. I love when she lets me hold her, even though she is 7, I just want to hold her to make up for all the times I didn't get to. I love getting to do her hair in the morning and night. I love her loud squeaky laugh. I love when she dances and her legs and arms move a million miles an hour. I love getting to kiss her goodnight and just lay next to her and tell her how precious she is to me. I love when she gets cuddly after she has been in trouble and she just wants to hug me and not let go. I love when she looks up from working on something and she says "momma, I love you." (Melt my heart again!).
I am finally to that place where I feel like I'm earning the title mom... Where they are trusting us enough and opening up more and more about their past and sharing the things that makes them sad... Where they want us to comfort them and they actually don't want to dissappoint us but they still feel conflicted with so many emotions... Where I feel sad and get upset when I have to spend a day away from them for whatever reason... Where Gods blessings are becoming real and thought it is so far from perfect, I wouldn't have it any other way.
I also can't wait till I can post pictures!! Elva turned 7 in mid March and we had the wonderful disaster of having a party at chuck e cheese. We had a lot of church friends and family join us which was awesome and although it was chaotic and stressful for myself, the kids had fun and that's all that matters. Plus, I may have mentioned to the guy in charge that this was my first birthday party ever... He looked very confused... So I had to explain that we adopted the kids and yada yada... So later when Elva was in the ticket blaster, she didn't grab the 1000 ticket pass... And the guy handed it to her... Her eyes got huge! Haha. She got a lot of artsy craftsy and Barbie things which she adores. And Waylon had a hard time with the fact that he didn't get any presents but we tried to let him have some special privileges.
Spring break was interesting as we didn't have anyone to watch the kids (who we wanted to torture by letting them) so they got really familiar with hanging out at the church with daddy. It was boring most of the time but but we tried to let them have fun at night to make up for it.
Currently I am sitting in a hotel room with Waylon next to me watching animal planet and snuggling while Elva is singing in the shower. It's so cool how things have changed and how much the nerves have been replaced with smiles. We are closer and closer to becoming a family. Thanks to our
prayer warriors, we pray you each are overwhelmed with extra blessings for your generosity of thinking of us. Till next time, count your blessings, everyday!
You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with JOY in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. (Psalm 16:11 NIV)